All of us have an instinct toward pleasure (sex, food etc). This is an inborn mental drive in all of us. But if we all were to follow these urges completely, community is endangered for there will be anarchy. For instance, it’s a known fact that men desire women sexually even when there’s no love involved. Men would actually sleep with any woman even without their consent if there were no restraints. So for the sake of civilization, we all have to give up some of our pleasures. Civilization in fact denies us much of the pleasure that a primitive man would be able to enjoy, that is, civilization represses us for the sake of civilization's stability.

Civilization is largely responsible for our misery; primitive man was much happier. The fact that we are repressed creates many of the psychological problems in society.

Humans commonly find ways to lessen the pain of withdrawal from the pleasure they really seek. Some find solace in alcohol or in a substitutive pleasure like art which may not give the gratification of sex, but it somehow lessens the pain of not getting what one wants. Real pleasure comes from the sudden satisfaction of repressed or withdrawn instincts. Think sex.

The idea behind civilization to some extent is ultimately a question of efficiency. Civilization more efficiently allows us ALL to get pleasure. Prior to civilization, what protection was there for keeping one's sexual partner? The strong could take any person available. Just club the poor sucker and take the woman away. So, civilization is supposed to protect the average person from that possibility and eventually increase our enjoyment through the miracle of modern technology (Viagra, sex toys, candles, u get the deal).

But men and women are still suffering as we are increasingly frustrated in our desires. Men are oppressed of their sexuality. Talk sex to a woman, it’s sexual harassment. Talk sex to a guy, it’s per minute. In the current society, men could not be true to his sexual desire for he will be branded as pervert. For women, she is not allowed to enjoy sex for the fear of being called a slut. The truth is, women enjoy sex just as much as we (men) do, if not more. They weren’t born with the ability to have multiple/longer orgasms for no reason. If a woman expresses her natural sex drive, other women will be intimidated. So they have to hate her and they call her a slut. To me personally, that’s a normal woman, at last.

I’m not saying we should pursue our primal instinct/desire regardless of the civilization. But men should be allowed to express his sexuality in a healthy way instead of repressing it. Never feel sorry for being a man. And women should stop using sex as a weapon or bargaining tool. Regard sex as the natural, pleasurable act that it is supposed to be.

The Chinese ideogram for "trouble" symbolizes two women living under one roof.

*one of me favourites

The Road Not Taken - Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

It’s beyond the human brain to understand the world and its environment, so the brain compensates by creating simplified illusions that act as a replacement for understanding. When the illusions work well and the human who subscribes to the illusion survives, those illusions are passed to new generations.

We do not live our lives the way we truly want. We live our life ruled by the social-ego, the society that we conform to. Why do we even have clothes? Adam and Eve weren’t wearing any when they were running around Eden. Why women bother painting their face and spend thousands on superficial stuffs that have no real utility? It’s because society dictates that if a woman is ugly or “unpresentable” then she would be stuck at the bottom of the pecking order. That’s reality. Women have to look good because we men want them to. Call men shallow but women do not paint their face or dress themselves up because they want to; they did it because we, men, the society want them to.

Most of what we do is hardly what we really wanted to do. Men work hard to gain financial freedom in order to secure a wife. Women work hard in order to make more money to appreciate their superficial values. A man’s eminence in society is measured by the money he makes and a woman by how good she looks. For as long as you conform to society, you will never truly live.

And for being in total control of their lives? Do they? Your boss calls you in the middle of the night to work. You conform. One of your clients gets mad at you for no reason. You take all the shit and smile. Your boyfriend cheated on you with you best friend. You seek revenge. Someone pisses you off. You try to get even.

Until you can learn how to really let go and walk away, you will never find peace and your life will just be a mess. Every human brain is an individual delusion-generator. It generates illusion that they are comfortable with, the basic notion of a religion. Some believe in God, some do not. Whether God exists or not, it’s an illusion. An illusion shared by billions of people which in turn makes it a reality (by the use of religion). Most of the population believes in God in some form, but who can say that God really do exist?

I am not saying that I am right. I could be wrong. Perhaps I was wrong all along. But it doesn’t matter to me anymore. What I really do hope to see is that people can learn how to let go. It really breaks my heart to see in the papers that someone is killed because of love triangles. People attempting suicide when things don’t go their way. Guys getting all messed up when a girl dumps him. They care too much, way too much for their own good. If only they can let go.

The problem you feel, you all THINK you feel, is simply because you believe it is a problem. I suck in expressing ideas with words. It doesn’t do justice to what I am trying to convey. Some of my friends will think that I am high on caffeine while writing this. So for further information, Sila rujuk kepada - ‘Freud and Fight Club’ by Noah Chafets.

Liverpool kicked off their tour of the United States and Canada by thrashing Celtic 5-1 in the Rentschler Field Stadium in Hertford, East Connecticut in the early hours of Tuesday morning.

Djibril Cisse (2) and Stephane Henchoz both scored their first goals for Liverpool to wrap up the game in the second-half after John Arne Riise and Michael Owen had powered the Reds into a 2-nil lead after just 16 minutes of the first-half. Celtic scored a late consolation goal from the spot after 73 minutes when Craig Beattie picked himself up from a foul by Salif Diao to put his penalty beyond Chris Kirkland but Cisse's second after 76 minutes restored the four-goal cushion.

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As I lay me down to sleep,
I pray for a woman, who's very cheap.
One who's sexy, blonde and long.
Who notices that she's mostly wrong.
One who sucks and doesn't speak.
And promises to do so, once a week.
I pray that she is very randy,
'Cause one like that would come in handy.
Opens her leg and lies on the floor,
And once I'm done, she begs for more.
Oh, send me a woman who will not play with my mind.
Who knows what she wants and that's lots from behind!
One who'll make love till my body's a twitchin'
And brings me a beer when she comes from the kitchen!

I pray that she'll last right up to the end,
And would never complain when I do her best friend.
Thanks in advance, and you know I can't wait,
so I'll screw all the rest 'cause it's never too late.

Amen.

Open response for StarMag, July 25, page 24, Dear Thelma column, “Wife not what he expects”. 

Perfect example of why men/women got married for the wrong reason. And most of the time, it’s the man who suffers. At the end of his (the husband) letter, he asked, “Am I expecting too much?” Well, I’m gonna answer that since Thelma did not answer it. You have all the rights to expect that much. My advice, get a divorce. Or at least tell her that you are contemplating divorce. That might scare her enough to change. Otherwise, she has to go.

She’s a bum. She’s a bad example for the kids. Direct quote “my wife sleeps late ever day and wakes up early only if she has too. As a result, she is grossly overweight and lacks energy. Our sex life is lukewarm”. Lukewarm is an understatement. Get a divorce or get her to change. Otherwise, you might end up having an affair. And that would be nasty. And she might get a divorce from you with that reason and take everything you have.

Bottom-line, your wife is a walking health hazard. It’s acceptable to keep things that u do not need (like a 49” plasma TV) but it’s actually stupid to keep someone who only knows how to sleep, eat and at the same time, not pleasant to look at, a bad example for the kids and basically, a waste of natural resources.

Just imagine for a second what would happen if the roles were to be reversed. The wife would have got a divorce together with the house, car, money and kids. The world favors women and that’s the way it is. Women can even get away with murder with just 3 words, Pre Menstrual Syndrome (PMS). It DID happened before. So are women really victims? Go figure.

*my personal opinion on why they got married in the first place is that it was all an accident. He said in his letter that he’s married for 12 years and his 2 kids are aged 12 and 9. So there’s a huge possibility that it was indeed an accident. I guess shotgun marriage is the way to go these days.

Most women consider a man who lies is a jerk. Confront her with her mistakes in choosing liars in the past, and she will usually defend herself by saying something like “but at least I got rid of him”. Unfortunately for her, she got rid of him after he got what he wanted (sex), and before she got what she wanted (commitment).

Lying turns every rule of relationships upside-down, because when a liar and an honest man want the same woman, the liar will always win. Nice guys lose out to liars because liars are not restricted by truth or ethics. A liar can invent anything he is lacking, while your honest man is stuck with the plain old truth.

Tell a woman who has been lied to that it’s her own doing for allowing it to happen, and she will say that you are blaming the victim. Complain to her about being lied to, and she will criticize you for being a victim. It's a no-win situation that puts the nice guys at a disadvantage. He has to be honest, put himself in a position to be lied to, and not complain if he winds up betrayed.

His lack of sexual experience works against him, because he usually won't know how to turn her on. She will then sense this flaw and dismiss him as a lover. Their conversations will stall because he doesn't know how to get where he wants to go and she has no desire to take him there. She then wants to repel him, and to do so she starts lying, because she correctly presumes that he can't handle the truth or turn her on in any way.

Of all the reasons women give for lying, the one that they feel justifies it the most but which is actually the worst reason, is to spare your feelings. It's not that they aren't trying to spare a man's feelings when they lie about why they reject him, or what they truly think about him, but instead the reason given is yet another lie in a lie!! Women do not lie to spare a man’s feelings; they lie to spare their own image. Does she really want to tell him that he's not tall enough, not enough of a jerk, not sexually skilled enough, that she'd be embarrassed to parade him around as her boyfriend, or anything along these lines? Of course not. Instead, she acts as if she finds nothing wrong with him, leaving his fatal flaw intact, and to add insult to the injury, they reassure him with platitudes.

When a woman lies to a man, she expects him to just get over it, tells him it was his fault for trusting her, leaving him to stew in his betrayal. When a jerk lies to a woman, he becomes public enemy #1. The double-standard is absurd. Nice men are too bothered by guilt to be caught in betrayal, and would actually feel bad about hurting someone to get laid. Jerks are not restricted by such silly things as conscience and can say or do anything they have to in order to get what they want (sex). The sexual revolution is to blame for a lot of this, because in the past, a man had to walk down the aisle before he get sex, and for him to win that honor (sex) from a woman, he had to have something going for him and although if he was a cheater, she would often stick out a loveless marriage for the sake of convenience, financial support, and reputation.

In the final analysis, women have to be held completely accountable for lying men because they are the ones who continue to tolerate lies even when they are presented with evidences. Hearing what they want to hear and believing what they want to believe is more important to them than whether or not what they are hearing is true. When asked specifically how they can tell their man is honest, a woman will begin by protesting that she just knows, and when it is pointed out to her that this is impossible to know, she will concede that she does not know for sure, but that at some point you just have to trust.

The first 2 contestants got a comment from Roslan that they sing English like some Javanese. And b4 they went to commercials, Jien said “we are off to a great start”. I understand that Jien is trying to zest things up but u can’t say it’s a great start when 2 contestants sang like someone from the Kepulauan Jawa.

Like I said earlier in me previous post. Pronunciation is important. No matter how good ur voice is, if u can’t pronounce it properly, they whole song will just suck.

Jee, she just can’t stop complaining/criticizing about the contestants’ outfits. Come on Jee, stop it already. Comment them for their singing for a change for crying out loud.

So far, none of the contestants actually rebutted the negative comments from the judges. The best they can do is “this is who I am”. Please hv a backbone and stand for urself. They r just too scared or just too nice. Either way, it’s not good.

There’s hardly any connections among the judges. The only way Roslan is relating to Jee is by using the line “apa pendapat jee?” And it had been a standard line for Roslan too. And I don’t think Paul understands everything said by Roslan and Jee. He is practically doing his comments independently.

Hairil, the 3rd contestant – he sang badly. No doubt about it. He was too soft, no power at all. It’s like he had asthma. Roslan and Jee agreed with me tat he did sing badly. And this is the joke. Paul actually said he sing really well. I know what Paul was actually doing, he is just trying to stir up some controversy but it was damn obvious tat he did it on purpose. U should hv seen the look on Jee’s face. She was stunned!!

Aifa – she sang in Bahasa Malaysia BAKU. And she speaks in BAKU too. And I’m gonna be a jackass here and make a pre-mature assumption that she is not going to be able to sing in English properly.

Andrew – he can sing, infact I kinda like his voice. But he has got some serious image issue. He should cut off his lock and get some funky hairdo. Do something like Vick or whatever, just lose the long hair.

Anis – she claimed she used to sing backup for Siti Nurhaliza. Personally, it actually hurts me literally to hear her sing. The best thing about her is when she stopped singing. And Paul did get it right; she does dress like an aunty. I know she’s a mother, but if u r going to be an idol, then stop dressing like an aunty. Ironically, Jee din say anything about her outfit.

Rinie – got a good voice, and she did sing nicely. But she kinda screwed up a bit in the middle during a high note. Personally, she is good. And Jee, please stop with the whole outfit criticizing thing.

Victor – he wanted to sing in Chinese coz he said he has always sung in Chinese. And if he did sing in Chinese, it would be damn weird. He made a mistake, he sang the wrong song. He sang Belaian Jiwa and to me tat was a bad move. First, the song is oversell. Second, his pronunciation is bad. My take on this is tat, he’s trying to cash in on a popular song tat all races are familiar with. But it all screwed up when he can’t pronounce “sampai” properly and he can’t keep a high note.

Rydee – I kinda like her. She can sing, nice voice and all. But she “Heeeeeeeeeeee” too much. I mean those high octave note or whatever. Kinda like her lips too. Pouty and shiny.

Aisha – One word. Bloody damn vain. Ok, 3 words. She’s not tat pretty but she is vain. Too beauty-conscious. Low self-esteem perhaps? And frankly, while I was writing this, I couldn’t even remember wat she sung. There was no impression of her at all. It was nothing.

Fazly – he sung like Awie. Infact, he would hv given Awie a run for his money. If he was to enter a contest looking for a Awie clone, he would hv won it hands down. But definitely not an idol material. U just don’t see Awie being Malaysian Idol rite? 

Me placed me votes on Andrew, Rinie, Rydee and Victor (dark horse).

Okie, now tat I am finished. I am gonna go listen to Kurt Nilsen singing Beautilful Day on World Idol. After listening to all this contestants sing, Kurt Nilsen’s the only reason why I am still watching Malaysian Idol. It gives hope to know that perhaps and I say perhaps one day we might find someone like Kurt Nilsen.

*for those who never heard of Kurt Nilsen, he’s the winner of the first World Idol beating Kelly Clarkson. He is not good looking and he looks like a hobbit. Father of 2. A plumber. And did I say he’s not good looking? But he has a voice of an angel!!!

*taken from a survey

Listen up, ladies! Men love it when you:
 
20. Have the ability to tease, be playful and able to take a joke
19. Know that men are not, in fact, from Mars, and women are not from Venus
18. Wear our T-shirts and boxers
17. Call us out of the blue (if we're dating; not if we're practically strangers)
16. Kiss creatively
15. Have a social conscience and enjoy a good debate
14. Have an easy-going attitude about watching or participating in athletic events occasionally
13. Are comfortable leading the whole way in bed.
12. Ask for advice about non-stereotypically male stuff (yes, guys usually know what CD player  to buy, but we like to be taken seriously about other things too)
11. Are charming and thoughtful to his mother
10. Can hold up your hair using only a pencil
9. Are sexy and smart at the same time -- for example, you do the Sunday crossword wearing a pair of flirty pajamas
8. Have the ability to remind us what gifts you like, without implying an obligation
7. Have a spirit of independence, but one that doesn't make the man in your life feel unnecessary
6. Know the difference between flirting and just ''being friendly''
5. Eat a big meal and fearlessly order dessert
4. Take naps next to us
3. Send us flowers (believe it or not, men like getting flowers, too!)
2. Know what you want
1. Know what you want to do

*should hv put this earlier, but still, better late than never. anyway, i am not posting as much these days since i hv to take care of something.

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just formatted me pc, so not really in any mood to write anything. but it wouldnt be nice to leave me blog static rite. so here's a story tat i like. ;)
 
Baros topped the scoring charts in Portugal with five goals for the Czech Republic during their march to the semi finals and he now says he feels in the mood to carry his rich vein of scoring form into the new campaign with Liverpool.
 
Speaking to Liverpoolfc.tv, Baros said: "I have heard all the rumours about Real Madrid and Barcelona supposedly being interested in me and of course it's nice to see clubs like that wanting you. But I am back at Liverpool now ready for a new season and I want to stay here and play as many games as I can.
 
*althou i like Real Madrid too but there's no way they gonna take milan baros away. No Way!!

Ok, I was wrong about Malaysian Idol. It wasn’t only about Malays after all. Vick did get thru and in fact, he got thru with the -highest- votes. I am sorry for I may hv come to a wrong assumption earlier. But still, none of the 2 Malay judges actually pick Vick to go thru. It says a lot about their judging capabilities (or lack of). Only the mat salleh, whom I think makes a decent judge compared to the other 2, actually pick Vick to go thru.
 
Straight after Malaysian Idol, it was The OC. There’s actually a lot to be learn from today’s episode of The OC.

1.  Never get back to a girl who never trusted u (Ryan and Marissa). It could never work. The  ghost will come back and haunt u.

2. Guys should be persistent when going after a girl (Seth and Summer). But in a non-annoying way. Girls can hate u when they r annoyed but they can’t resist u when they r laughing. Laughing is a form of admission.

3. Sex plays a huge part in a relationship (Seth and Summer). If the sex sucks, it means u suck too.

And btw, Anna is not coming back so i guess my next best girl would be Hailey. Or even Theresa but i think i like hailey more.

You're going out on a date with a woman. You ask her where she would like to go for dinner. She doesn't give you an answer, and seems to be indifferent. 
 
So you ask her what her favorite restaurant is. She says "well, I really like this one particular place, but it's up to you". You say "but I really want to take you to the place tat you'd like to go... you decide". 
 
You can hear in her voice that she's actually beginning to get annoyed. This confuses you, since you're just trying to find out what she wants so you can give it to her. 
 
You finally decide to just take her to her favorite place, since... well... duh, it's her favorite place, so she's obviously going to enjoy it. 
 
As the evening goes on, you can sense that she's in a bad mood, but you can't understand why or how this could be. The evening ends on a bad note, even though you went out of your way to make it nice for her.
 
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Why is it that sometimes, when you're trying your very damn best to be nice, considerate, honest, open, and respectful, women disrespect you and run? 

You can ask a woman what she wants, take her to her favorite restaurant, tell her how you feel about her, and at the end she gets –annoyed- at you. 

It's because you made a bigger mistake while you were trying to be nice. When you asked her what she wanted to do, you put her in control. This is annoying to women. When you couldn't make up your mind where to take her, and wound up taking her to her favorite restaurant, you demonstrated that you can't lead. Again, by being nice and considerate in one way, you were actually making a huge mistake on another level. 

Attraction isn't a choice. We don't go through a logical decision-making process and carefully consider who we're going to be attracted to. This explains alot why women are attracted to jerks and not nice guys. Being nice just doesn't cut it.

I'm not saying that you should treat women badly. You just hv to understand the psychology of the situation and the psychology of attraction and know how to handle the situations.

Apparently, one of me readers (yay, I actually hv a reader) is upset with me usage of the word “fuck”. And I am sincerely really sorry if I offended anyone but I’m not gonna change the way I write. In fact, the previous post was the only post where I use the F word. Profanities are used only when it’s deems necessary. I’ll not even try to be politically correct here; the world is so messed up because everyone is trying to be politically correct.
 
And btw, I re-read my previous post and -none- of the F words were actually used in a context of swearing.
 
*for the record, I don’t think fuck is a foul word. Its value as a foul word has decreased tremendously over the years of constant usage in all walks of life (apart from using it solely as a swear word).

Malaysian idol? Well, why not change it to Malay idol? First they say during the early rounds of audition that u could sing any language. Be it in Chinese, Malay, Tamil, English, anything. But then during the “theater elimination”, contestants are only allowed to choose between Malay and English songs. I mean, wat the fuck. Why cant they sing in other language other than tat 2?
 
Some Chinese singers can sing really well in Chinese but they just can’t sing it tat well in Malay or English due to the difficulty in pronunciation. I mean, ask P.Ramlee to sing in Cantonese, u’ll get wat I mean. It just doesn’t sound right but tat doesn’t mean they can’t sing. This is just fucking unfair. And the title of the show “Malaysian Idol” is misleading. They should change it to Malay Idol. I can bet my hair on it tat a Malay girl will win this thing. There are more Malays in this country compare to the others combined. I just don’t see a Malay guy picking up the phone and voting for Vick (the only Chinese on the first show). Yeah, I may be superficial but I am no racist. I just think this is fuck.
 
And the judges, they are a bunch of hypocrites. “ohh, saya rasa awak bagus”, “ohh, awak menyanyi dengan bagus”, “ohh, saya suka nyanyian anda”. If they really think those contestants are really tat good when they r obviously not, perhaps they might as well just kiss my white ass. The judges favors the Malays, and don’t tell me otherwise because it’s fucking obvious throughout the whole show from the early auditions till now. A malay guy with a malay lady and a mat salleh are in no position to judge a Chinese singing in Chinese or an Indian singing in Tamil. This is Malay Idol since the very beginning. There is no such thing as Malaysian Idol.
 
And for the only Chinese (Vick) on this first show, to me, he was among the best singer. But I don’t really think he will make it thru. wanna know why? Because he’s not gonna get enuf votes to get thru. More Malays are watching and I don’t think they will vote for him. they'll probably just vote for some Malay hotties (if there's any to begin with). In the end, this whole show will just be about Malays.
 
If u’re gonna make a show tat favors the Malays then by all means do it as Malay Idol. Do not mislead the public.
 
Malaysian = Malays, Chinese, Indians, Kadazan, Dusun, Iban, Melanau, and all the other races in this country.
Malay = Malay. Period.
Choose the word wisely the next time around when u decide to make another show.
 
*I was the only Chinese during my pre-school and primary. And I was in a boarding school (less than 10 non-malays at any given time) for secondary so I basically lived with Malays for 5 years. I hv more malay frens than any other races combined. I got nothing against them. But this whole Malay-sian Idol is just fuck, with the loud F.  

why the sex industry should be legalized.
Once a man hits puberty, he gets the sense he'll forever be part idiot. It's debilitating, it hurts. These strip clubs tat you go, you look around and you see the women, then you see all the men, and you realize you're not alone. The room is full of idiots! It makes us feel better.

And to be honest, it is important. It's liberating. You grow up hiding in your closet with a flashlight, a copy of Playboy, trying not to get the pages sticky. You wonder if you're some kind of deviant. The fear of being a pervert can drive you to be isolated, perhaps anti social. You don't feel fit in, you go to work at the post office, you just don't belong, you're different, the insecurity festers into neurosis, all the while, you're normal and you don't know it! You go to this club, you see normal people. These places aren't just sex shops; they stand to preserve our mental health!

It’s sad to see tat our culture forbids us from expressing our sexuality. This is a form of oppression towards men. Look at all the cases of incest. Father raping daughter, grandfather raping granddaughter. This is just stupid. All these stupid rapists should go to hell for all I care but the government and women do play a part on why such things occur.

Look at wat happen after a couple gets married. The wife stops taking care of her appearance and starts to get fat. And on top of tat, she withholds sex (the famous, “I hv a headache” line). I mean, the guy married a woman who used to be thin and pretty but now she’s “different”. It’s not hard to see why the husband would lose his sexual drive towards his wife. But man still hv needs and he can’t go to a prostitute bcoz it’s not legal in this country. So guess wat happens next? Rape and incest.

Singapore has legalized prostitution bcoz of its high number of raping cases. Our country should hv done the same but we can’t. Our constitution would never allow tat to happen. And to me personally, that is just plain stupid if not idiotic. Even sexual protection programs aren’t allowed to be shown on tv let alone talk about it openly. I guess I shouldn’t be surprise when girls are pregnant even b4 the age of 20.

Rapists are guilty no matter wat’s the reason behind their actions but to be fair, sometimes, a rapist is a product of our own society’s doing.

*If I hv the time, I might write another piece on why a wife should let her husband hv a mistress.

I think I am having a fever now. Must be the cold weather and the fact tat I haven’t took a bath for the past 2 days .. hahah. My whole body is aching now, if only I could get a full body massage, tat would really help.

Guess there’s nothing much I could do today so I guess I’ll just stay dormant. My eyes are really burning rite now. Gonna go put a couple of ice cubes on me eyes now.

b4 I get started with wat I’m gonna write, I wanna make it clear tat I really do love women, a lot. I got nothing against them and love is all I hv for them.

Recently, I came across a forum where they were discussing about our Miss Malaysia 2004 tat were competing for Miss Universe. Not really sure when was it but tat’s not the point. The point I’m trying to make here is, in Malaysia, u could actually “buy” almost anything. Including the title Miss Malaysia... *not making any accusations, just merely a personal opinion of mine

I mean, no offence to “big” women (I love women in any shapes, wat counts is the attitude) but how can someone like her get to win Miss Malaysia? I agree she’s got a nice face but her body? I am not gonna kid anyone here but isn’t she a little plus size to compete in Miss Universe? Yeah yeah, I know being Miss Malaysia you got to hv the brain too but doesn’t she also need the body?



Apparently, it turns out that her mom was a former Miss Malaysia. So I guess her mom must hv pulled some ranks so tat her daughter could get the title (just an assumption, not accusation or anything). Her representing Malaysia in competing for Miss Universe really does not do any justice to Malaysian women. We hv far better looking girls! Even my fren who is applying for Singapore Airlines looks way much better.

Well, this summary of the article (the friend crush) I read is actually my 2 cents. Couldn’t really get much useful information from the article. this is the original version of it

The reason why a guy shouldn’t harbor a love feeling towards a lady friend is because it’s almost impossible for such relationship to work. Whenever a guy makes a move and the girl says “lets be friend first” then it’s usually a sign that u r on ur way out. “nice guy” and “friend” are the 2 things that u don’t want to hear from her when u r trying to win over the girl.

Some guys would argue tat being her fren first would give her the chance to know him more b4 he makes his move. This is actually the classic “nice guy” move. Whenever a woman meets a guy, she will immediately rate him on her “physical attraction test”. Some women like bald, some like tall, some like short. Appearance is subjective. It doesn’t take long b4 a woman decides how far the guy will ever get.

A woman can be really nice to a guy and share everything with him but tat doesn’t mean she likes him (as a fren, yes, more than tat, no). The guy is just a “male girlfriend” to her, or so to speak. She might even kiss him and it wouldn’t hv mean anything. Women are emotionally-driven creatures so some of the things they do might not even make sense (except to them at that moment)

Always let the women tat you are interested in know up-front tat you are there to date her and not befriend her. Never start from friend first and hope tat it would escalate into something tat will never be. Being her friend first is “weak” and woman do not like tat. You got to sweep her off her feet, hard. The worse thing that could happen if she rejects u is that u could always end up being her friend.

Woke up quite late today. Been trying to salvage the pc tats been giving me problems for a couple of days. And it’s a cold day too today, and guess wat .. for the second day running I don’t hv to bath ;p

Saw something interesting on the papers today. It’s an article (a long one) about friend-crush. This usually happens to guys where the guy secretly harbors a thing for the lady-friend. This kinda relationship hardly works. Why ? Well, I’ll summarize why on me next post. Now me got to go break the bad news to the girl (the pc girl).

This is also a transcript from Ally McBeal but I decided to change it from a conversation into statements. It sounds stronger in a statement form.

Personally, sexual harassment laws are bias. The original force behind them was disgruntled lesbians who felt they were not given the same opportunities. Along with ugly women, who were jealous of pretty women who got all the breaks in the workforce.

Women are victims. They need special help. Look at the evolution of these sexual harassment laws. What we are really saying is women really should qualify under the Federal Disability Act. They are less able. They cannot cope with romance in the office. They cannot contend with having to do a job and have a man smile at them. It is too much. Look where we use to be, first quid pro quo, and then hostile environment. Women can't take it; they bruise too easily. The laws are here to protect the weak and most vulnerable in society. She is a woman, protect her!

Why do women wear high heels? They are hugely uncomfortable, make it easier to fall, cause back problems, but they call it fashion. What kind of person would spend an equivalent of two years painting her face and plucking out her eyebrows, and putting silicone or saline in her chest? There is a name for this kind of person, 'woman.' Why? Because, we 'men' like it. Don't talk to me about equality. Don't tell me you (women) aren't disabled.

Its kinda depressing to know tat when u start something that were meant to be seen by the masses but no one is giving a damn about it. Apparently all of my frens do not know about my existence or I mean the existence of this blog. Even after putting all my efforts in the quest of validation, I am still now un-validated.

But anyway, it was a rainy day today and it was pretty cold considering the climate of this county. Tat saves me from bathing since I am not sweating as much .. hahaha.

Still thinking on how to tell the girl that her pc is messed up (not my fault, honest to goodness). I really hate this, I mean I rather go to her place and fix it there than having to do at my place. If anything goes wrong, at least she wun be suspicious of me. And if I do it at her place, I could get her younger sister to sit by me and teach her how to use the mouse .. hahaha

I finally thought that I’ve already figured out wat the problem with the pc tat I was working on and now it’s giving me yet another problem. It turns out tat the ram was faulty so I took out one of mine and plug it in into hers so tat I can install everything and just wait for her to get a new ram.

And guess what, halfway installing, the whole partition on the hard disk got corrupted. It turns out that the hard disk was not stable. Now I hv to reformat and reinstall again. I guess I’ll just stop doing anything once I finish installing the OS. If it’s gonna “expire”, it’s not gonna “expire” on me, tat’s for sure.

Well, it’s not my fault if it’s gonna “expire” coz I did nothing bad. When the pc came to me, it was already showing me a BSOD (blue screen of death) and tat wasn’t really a good sign either.

Well, I guess there goes my chance with her younger sister :(

Was working on a pc today. My mom’s fren’s daughter had her pc broke down so as a favor for my mom, (she agreed on my behalf tat I would help, not me) I had to fix it. Been fixing and fixing but still it wouldn’t work. keep giving me some ntldr is missing and keep asking me to restart. I really hate it when this happens. It’s not tat I hate helping others but if somehow the pc is really wrecked then it would hv wrecked on my hand.

She might be thinking, “damn, this idiot messed up my pc and now he’s telling me it was already fucked up”. If only her younger sister was the one who came today, then probably I might just give her my pc instead ;p ... her younger sister is really cute.

found this from some websites, it's actually a transcipt from Ally McBeal

(Ling defending herself when her mud-wrestling club is being sued)
Ling : The idea that it degrades women is ridiculous. Every woman wants to be thought of as desirable. Imagine, they can go home at night and say "Even in mud, I look good!"
Nelle: You have to admit this activity does objectify them?
Ling : So?
Nelle: Ling, how can it not be a little degrading, women stranding around in bathing suits ? Guys whooping?
Ling : First, the women there make nearly a hundred thousand dollars a year. How? These drunken Neanderthals hurl money at them. Go into that club. You come out with a lower opinion of men, trust me.
Nelle: That could be true, but these girls do make that money with their bodies.
Ling : They make it, by teasing men with something they'll never get their hands on. That goes to the very essence of a woman.
Nelle: Excuse me?
Ling : Sex is a weapon. We all use it, we taunt, we tantalize, we withhold it, something we do in almost every walk of life, be it marriage, business... God gave us that advantage by giving men the dumb stick.

The last statement from Ling was priceless! I couldn’t hv said it any better. When it comes to anything sexual, men do think with the dumb stick. No denying about tat. Couple tat with the testosterone we hv, it’s hard not to think with the dumb stick. True to its name, thinking with the dumb stick does yield unfavorable results.

The very essence of a woman; teasing men with something they’ll never get their hands on. They tease with the soft touches, those dreamy eyes, the cleavage, sexual innuendos and many more. But once a guy starts to make sexual moves, BAM!, it’s all over. They will say that men do not respect them, that sex is the only thing men ever want. It’s an obvious trap but men still fall for it, why u may ask. 2 words, dumb stick.

Men are really astounding suckers. Some (most?) men got married because of the wrong reasons and they don’t even know it. Try go out with some married guys for a couple of beers and when they are drunk, ask them this, “If it wasn’t for the kids, would u get a divorce?” You might be surprise with the answer.

Sex is a weapon. Every woman knows tat and they use it all the time. Prostitutes use it to make a living. Other women use it to close business deals, get favors, free drinks on a night out, entertainment, and to get sugar and spice and everything nice. With a prostitute, it’s an honest transaction. You get what u pay. But with the others, it’s everything but honest.

Average women use sex as a tool. They tease with it, they tantalize with it and the worst of all, they withhold it until they get their way. Average women do not sleep around; they just give out a false sense of promise and prospect of sex to get what they want. Unlike their ethical sisters, the prostitutes who deal in honest transactions, average women hardly complete the transactions.

Just finished watching The OC. Man, Marissa is really driving me crazy. Do you know that sometimes some people are just so innocent and naïve where to a point you just can’t help to call that person “stupid”? Marissa is exactly one of that “stupid” person.

And Seth, he is one of the classic examples of an idiot-jerk. Dating Anna but at the same time flirting with Summer who apparently still hv a crush on Seth. Good thing that Anna broke it up with Seth.

And Anna really rocks. If I were to choose, I’ll take Anna anytime. Loves those eyes.

There is this tv show called Pillow Talk hosted by Bernie Chan. And on one particular episode, she blurted out the line “my money is my money; your money is my money”. This is true since most (if not all) of the time it’s the man who pays for everything and hardly the other way round. Women these days are earning just as much if not more as their male counterparts. So wat’s wrong with having the courtesy to at least split the bill? Or treat your man once a while for a change?

Some women swear that they do not hv interest in money, yet they callously reject anyone with an unimpressive salary. Even if they do, they will justify it by saying financially stability is a pre-requisite in a relationship. Apparently, the man’s financial background is important but hers is out of the question. So much for equal rights.

It’s acceptable for women to look for a man with a big fat wallet but it’s shallow for men to look for a woman with big breast. Studies have proved that the size of the female breast has nothing to do with the amount of milk production. Therefore it must be assumed that the breast's primary function is a sexual attractant.

It’s sometimes despicable the way women act, the way they use people, but I have to admit, if I were a woman, I'd probably do the same thing. It's one hell of a beautiful scam. All you have to do is be a woman and you don't have to pay for anything. It's arrogant and it should be illegal, but they get away with it. It's amazing what suckers men are.

For as long as I’ve been living, I don’t think there’s ever an advertisement tat ever made me smiled. The ad is about a girl (a cute one) driving a convertible stuck in traffic and then decided to take a car wash. And there’s where the shampoo came in. The best part of the whole ad is actually at the end where the girl sticks out her tongue. It’s just so darn cute you couldn’t help smiling :) I would kill to get her to do that in front of me, that would really make my day.

watched One Tree Hill on the telly today, a very interesting show I hv to say. There was this particular scene where Lucas asked Peyton why is she still with Nathan (apparently, Nathan is a jerk) and the answer from Peyton was, “cause sometimes it’s good, sometimes there’s no one else”. Guess now guys could stop asking why a girl is always with a jerk, u just got the answer. And by the way, Peyton is very attractive ;)

Gonna go finish up reading my FHM, Paula Malai Ali has never been more gorgeous. The photo shots were amazing!

Saw something interesting on the papers today. An article titled “he doesn’t have to be mr. perfect”. How many times have u heard these statements?

“I always end up with the wrong man”
“all the men I meet are either boring or married”

Most men find Diane, 28, desirable and she’s never without a relationship. Yet she always seems to attract men who are independent, self-centered, emotionally closed and unwilling to make the last commitment.

So Diane decides to find a more open and sensitive man and find just tat in Neil, 30, an architect. As they grew closer, Neil confided in her about certain career insecurities and often told Diane how much he cared for her and needed to feel close to her. Rather than enjoying his openness, Diane found herself pulling away, and to justify her decision doing so, she exclaimed, “I guess I just got bored”.

Women don’t simply “end up” with men who are wrong for them. Rather, the women who make these complaints have chosen men who can’t make them happy.

Smart women still look and hope for the perfect man – the prince. But truth is, there’s always something wrong with every man. One way women mask the futile quest for perfection is by being overly-critical. Each man, no matter how interesting, intelligent or considerate, is ultimately rejected. At first, sensitivity in a man is attractive but soon after, a sensitive man will ultimately be seen as a “weak man”.

Everyone thought Will would be the one to win her love. “He makes me laugh more than any man I can remember,” she told her friends. Yet, after a few months, Elizabeth slowly withdrew from him, complaining he was “not imaginative” in bed

End words from the article -
Take a second or even a third look at the man you’re tempted to ignore. He may not be drop dead gorgeous. He may be an awkward conversationalist. But he may possess great possibilities, truly a “diamond in the rough”. You may even discover, to your surprise, that you like him.

My 2 cents -
Sex before love. A guy may be a sweetheart and all that but if he sucks in bed, it will inevitably end. And if you think having a big “package” is enough, think again. Affection is the female's number one requirement, after respect. If you are affectionate, she will give up shopping and stay thin! Yes, it's true.

i never had a diary and now i am actually doing this. Perhaps I am now one step closer to lunacy. Or to quote what a fren said to me recently – “you need to get a life”. So I was thinking, how do you actually know if u already “hv a life”? working ur ass off, is tat a life? Having a new gf for every day of the week, is tat a life? Although the latter sounds amusing ;)

anyway, I’m just trying my shot to get a life here (yeah, it’s pathetic but try ask me if I care) and if it fails .. well, finding a new gf for each day of the week does sounds promising to say the least *wink*