This is the lyric of the song Alone by Heart. Pretty much sums up everything from my shitty moment. Especially the last 2 lines… *long long sigh*

I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm laying here, the room's pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though

Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone

You don't know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight
You don't know how long I have waited
And I was going to tell you tonight

But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown

p/s: this is a really good song.